I feel popular!

Thank you, no-longer-nonexistent blog buddies! I just realized that I have three wonderful followers! You guys are awesome! Online, I do so very much stuff, with so many websites, such as, to name the most popular, Facebook, Blogger, Twitter, DeviantArt, and Youtube, but I usually assume that I'm doing it just for fun, to explore the many worlds of social networking. I never think I will do the actual networking stuff, except on facebook, sometimes. So when I get any kind of response, like a new follower on twitter (13 now! Including some that I was very flattered to get, like @thinkgeek and @TheOnion (TheOnion even sent me a direct message. Whoa!)) or subscriber on youtube, or especially follower on this blog, since it's the only one I'm really very active on, I am surprised, excited and more surprised.

I almost feel kinda Under Pressure (Pressure! Pushing down on me, pressing down on you... hooray Queen!) now though because before, I was totally just writing whatever random stuff popped out of my fingers, but now, I feel like I have to please my audience. I have little mental dilemmas like this all the time, about whether I should try to fit in more or act like others so that life is easier, but I have decided I really enjoy myself more if I don't worry about other's negative reactions to me. I always try to make people happy, but I am no longer going to stay quiet if people diss something that I like, or change my mind about something because my opinions are unfavorable. I probably still will, as I am kinda spineless, but I will make a serious effort. I often have found my opinions about a person, movie, picture, anything change drastically with other's opinions. I don't like that. Gossip is so harmful because of the susceptibility and malleability of our brains to suggestion; we hear things and, whether it is a choice or not, it permanently affects our outlook. Also why advertising is successful. I may disagree with someone, but their ideas still combine with mine in my head. This is not a bad thing, until it comes to things that truly change us, the way we feel or treat others. Our perspective on something is inevitably based on our senses and experiences. We build our opinions based on what we see of the thing, and what we hear about it. I don't want to be so shaped by others that the "what I hear" part affects me nearly as much as the "what I experience" part. People nowadays are so negative; when was the last time you heard a conversation about how great so-and-so is? We just get a kick out of sharing negativity. Perhaps I am more malleable than others. I am going to not give into the pressure to appeal to readers, as that was not my original goal, and also because, if I gained readers, I must have been doing something right before. Do not take offense though, dear followers! You are highly appreciated. You just happen to be the victim to my self-realization. Sorry about that. You also have to deal with my rambles. My apologies once more.

On a mostly unrelated note, I am enjoying the beginning of a new undertaking - The Geek Factor Show! My time is precious (ha) and slim, so I hope I will be able to find enough to contribute to this idea, as it is quite to my liking. I shan't write too much in case it is meant to be a private idea so far.

Also, as I am finding it easier to write blog entries since I am in a pervasive good mood lately (the new year? Perhaps) I am going to try out a different type of entry for my next one. It will probably be a list, which I have done before to explain my internet adventures,  but one more just for a sound-off, for me to spout my opinions in a little different way. Look forward to it!